Saturday, June 29, 2013

days gone by

TUESDAY, NOVEMBER 28, 2006

Memories

Carried back across space and time to places I long to be and remember every chance I can. An ice cold bottle of coke: summer's growing up in Wisconsin, coming in from the oppressive heat and irritating mosquitoes that never ever seemed to give up. The cool breezes occasionally rising amidst heavy humidity that only air conditioning could shield against.
A yellow jersey: Thailand, Phuket, friends, beaches... soccer! Blue water, cold coffee, laughter, books, and letting go of 4 months of stresses and sicknesses which beat you down until you want to submit but can't.
A simple black leather wristband: Bali, little kids, poverty, (almost) surfing and sun, my good friend peter (aka the photographer).
italian cafe: family, history, life in relaxed but crazy times; sitting around the table and talking for hours and hours (and hours).
jazz: love, life, mysteries, art, poetry, tears amidst joy, sacrifices for a greater good.


Do you see what I see?

Friday, June 28, 2013

A Study of Faith

I think now is a good time for me to re-study elements of faithful people.

"Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see." ~Hebrews 11:1

Chapter 11 in the Book of Hebrews covers many people:
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hebrews%2011&version=NLT
    Abel, Enoch, Noah, Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, Sarah.  Verse 13 says, "All these people died still believing what God had promised them. They did not receive what was promised, but they saw it all from a distance and welcomed it. They agreed that they were foreigners and nomads here on earth."
   ...I don't know what to do with words like that when I have dreams.

Faith is about promises for the future... (v.20)

Moses, Rahab, Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel, and all the prophets.
And there is depth and greater (the greatest?) challenges beyond this still, as the stories unfold.

Am I faithful?

Verses 39-40: "All these people earned a good reputation because of their faith, yet none of them received all that God had promised. For God had something better in mind for us, so that they would not reach perfection without us."

What am I reaching for?  Are my dreams the same as God's for me?

Memo to Self: "Do. NOT. Worry."

Do Not Worry

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

~Gospel of Matthew

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Tough Days

   It's funny to remember seeing my friend Rosanna off at the airport - we talked about the journey and her difficult week which included a huge spider bite (which did not result in Spidey powers...) and just seeing so much.
   Her blog (below) is obviously flipped in character for me as a guy (especially #6) but the depth of conversation speaks a lot to where i'm at right now.
   I'm tired. I feel lost - the great part of myself imprisoned while the damaged part takes control for a while.  I'm recovering but I don't want to even be here.  When the list is too long it's hard to do everything.  My aim is to be perfect in all these things but the reality is that i'm not.  Which is why I strive.  It's why I compete.  It's why I fight.
   I will always set the bar at my dreams.  If I don't the days will not get tougher, they will become emptier.

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http://rosannatomiuk.com/2013/06/on-bad-days/


I wrote this song some months ago after a bit of a sad trip to Haiti. I feel like I wrote it today, though, which is why I’m sharing.
I had a blah day today. How are you? How was your day?
I hate feeling like I’m half this unique, wonderful woman and half this emotional, human machine that must be mastered. Do you ever feel the war inside yourself between the person you are and the person you long to be? Some days I don’t want to master the yuckier self. Some days I’m tired.
I wrote my brother this afternoon and said, “I’m a life coach, but I feel depressed!” Ha. Thank God I’ve learned I don’t have to be washed in bleach to help other people. Imperfect people help imperfect people, and the beauty unfolds.
In the second verse of this song, I sing, “So I ask what is this all for, and I know I’ve asked so many times…I look around, and I see these faces of confusion, delusion, illusion…Do I care? Do they care? A heart beats but there’s nothing to say…”
So much angst! That’s usually my problem.
The way I get out of my ruts is by ACTION. You? Here’s what almost always works for me:
1) Accept yourself for how you feel. Let grace in. Don’t try to fix yourself.
2) Tell people that love you about how you feel. Don’t try to tough it out too much. Seek encouragement.
3) Get out of the house. Go for a walk, go to the coffee shop. This’ll help free your mind from the prison it’s in.
4) Get the easier stuff done. The mindless stuff, like laundry and errands and tidying up.
5) Exercise. (I went to the pool tonight, but it was closed due to summer scheduling changes, darnit!!!)
6) Check your menstrual calendar, ladies. 50% of the time, it’s the reason I feel I’ve lost my mind!!!
7) If you’re at work, play a game of acting in accordance with how you’d act if you felt awesome! Fake it. It’s fun. It’s even more fun when you’re no longer faking it and didn’t even realize the transformation!!!
I also make a point to tuck myself into bed early on tougher days because my best and most inspired self is the early morning girl! So, good night, my sweet people. Enjoy the music and have a great week.
sad

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

yea, verily, though i walk through the valley

ha, i'm kind of pretending i speak olde english.  i don't.

  "The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want; he makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters; he restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.
   Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil; for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.
   Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of my enemies; thou anointest my head with oil, my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord for ever."  ~Psalm 23

It's ironic how people and things try to defeat me.  I'm not even saying someone actually is attempting to, i just recollect now that it's important for me to fight for what i believe in.  to walk through the valleys to reach my dreams.  To survive the darkness because there is light.  love IS light.  Love is hidden but it is IN the darkness and it calls me by name, searching for me.  Love chases me down.  Pursues me, even as I pursue it.  Pursuit IN the darkness.  A dangerous game, but it is what the bravest sheep would do, if only it knew what it was doing.

Saturday, June 22, 2013

the road

http://kimberleepeifer.tumblr.com/post/42579597717/prayer

Jesus, give us peace in our hearts as we search earnestly for you. Meet us where we are on this road. Sometimes lost. Sometimes overwhelmed. You are joy and peace and light. Bring us into that. Into knowing you more. Provide us partners and friends to walk beside us….in search of you.
J.E.

Friday, June 21, 2013

The shape of the future

"The shape of your character is the shape of your future."
Erwin Raphael McManus

Aka, the choices you make today determine who you become & how your future progresses.
Bekka Prewitt

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Purposeful Intent

Excellence is never an accident. It is always the result of high intention, sincere effort, and intelligent execution; it represents the wise choice of many alternatives - choice, not chance, determines your destiny. ―Aristotle

Repetition builds strength

"Repetition builds strength." ~UNKNOWN

Sleep Less, Weigh More ???

http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/2013/04/10/less-sleep-more-weight/

Sleep Less, Weigh More


A new study suggests that adolescent obesity could be decreased if teenagers got more sleep, and the heaviest would benefit most.
For a study published last week in Pediatrics, researchers surveyed 1,429 ninth graders, gathering data on height and weight. The children reported their sleep habits on weekdays and weekends to the nearest 15 minutes. The researchers followed the students with interviews every six months over the next four years, updating their data.
Each additional hour of sleep was associated with a reduction in body mass index, but the heaviest children — those above the 90th percentile of B.M.I. — had the greatest benefit, an average 0.28 reduction in B.M.I. for every extra hour. The researchers controlled for physical activity, screen time, sex, race and socioeconomic status.
The authors acknowledge that they had no data on caloric intake, which may increase with less sleep, but it is also possible that less sleep discourages physical activity and affects hormones that regulate energy expenditure.
“Our data can’t tell you what will happen with an individual child,” said the lead author, Jonathan A. Mitchell, a postdoctoral fellow at the University of Pennsylvania. “But based on our observational study, we predict that increasing the duration of sleep to 10 hours from eight would lead to a 4 percent reduction in obesity among U.S. children.”
A version of this article appeared in print on 04/16/2013, on page D4 of the NewYork edition with the headline: Childhood: Less Sleep, More Weight.

Shut Down

http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/2012/09/10/really-using-a-computer-before-bed-can-disrupt-sleep/

Really? Using a Computer Before Bed Can Disrupt Sleep


THE FACTS
Really?
REALLY?
Anahad O’Connor tackles health myths.
In today’s gadget-obsessed world, sleep experts often say that for a better night’s rest, Americans should click the “off” buttons on their smartphones and tablets before tucking in for the night. Electronic devices stimulate brain activity, they say, disrupting your ability to drift off to sleep. But according to the National Sleep Foundation, more than 90 percent of Americans regularly use a computer or electronic device of some kind in the hour before bed.
Increasingly, researchers are finding that artificial light from some devices at night may tinker with brain chemicals that promote sleep. Researchers at Rensselaer Polytechnic Institute showed that exposure to light from computer tablets significantly lowered levels of the hormone melatonin, which regulates our internal clocks and plays a role in the sleep cycle.
In the study, published in the journal Applied Ergonomics, the researchers had volunteers read, play games and watch movies on an iPad, iPad 2 or PC tablet for various amounts of time while measuring the amount of light their eyes received. They found that two hours of exposure to a bright tablet screen at night reduced melatonin levels by about 22 percent.
Studies of college students using computers at night have suggested similar effects on melatonin. And researchers say melatonin suppression may not only cause sleep disturbances, but also raise the risk of obesitydiabetesand other disorders.
To be on the safe side, the authors of the latest study suggest limiting computer use before bed, or at the very least dimming your screen as much as possible.
THE BOTTOM LINE
Artificial light from computer screens at night may reduce melatonin levels.
A version of this article appeared in print on 09/11/2012, on page D5 of the NewYork edition with the headline: Really? The Claim: Using a computer before bed can disrupt sleep..

I need to sleep more

http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/2013/06/17/cheating-ourselves-of-sleep/?smid=fb-share

Cheating Ourselves of Sleep

Think you do just fine on five or six hours of shut-eye? Chances are, you are among the many millions who unwittingly shortchange themselves on sleep.
Research shows that most people require seven or eight hours of sleep to function optimally. Failing to get enough sleep night after night can compromise your health and may even shorten your life. From infancy to old age, the effects of inadequate sleep can profoundly affect memory, learning, creativity, productivity and emotional stability, as well as your physical health.
According to sleep specialists at the University of Pittsburgh School of Medicine and Western Psychiatric Institute and Clinic, among others, a number of bodily systems are negatively affected by inadequate sleep: the heart, lungs and kidneys; appetite, metabolism and weight control; immune function and disease resistance; sensitivity to pain; reaction time; mood; and brain function.
Poor sleep is also a risk factor for depression and substance abuse, especially among people with post-traumatic stress disorder, according to Anne Germain, associate professor of psychiatry at the University of Pittsburgh. People with PTSD tend to relive their trauma when they try to sleep, which keeps their brains in a heightened state of alertness.
Dr. Germain is studying what happens in the brains of sleeping veterans with PTSD in hopes of developing more effective treatments for them and for people with lesser degrees of stress that interfere with a good night’s sleep.
The elderly are especially vulnerable. Timothy H. Monk, who directs the Human Chronobiology Research Program at Western Psychiatric, heads a five-year federally funded study of circadian rhythms, sleep strength, stress reactivity, brain function and genetics among the elderly. “The circadian signal isn’t as strong as people get older,” he said.
He is finding that many are helped by standard behavioral treatments for insomnia, like maintaining a regular sleep schedule, avoiding late-in-day naps and caffeine, and reducing distractions from light, noise and pets.
It should come as no surprise that myriad bodily systems can be harmed by chronically shortened nights. “Sleep affects almost every tissue in our bodies,” said Dr. Michael J. Twery, a sleep specialist at the National Institutes of Health.
Several studies have linked insufficient sleep to weight gain. Not only do night owls with shortchanged sleep have more time to eat, drink and snack, but levels of the hormone leptin, which tells the brain enough food has been consumed, are lower in the sleep-deprived while levels of ghrelin, which stimulates appetite, are higher.
In addition, metabolism slows when one’s circadian rhythm and sleep are disrupted; if not counteracted by increased exercise or reduced caloric intake, this slowdown could add up to 10 extra pounds in a year.
The body’s ability to process glucose is also adversely affected, which may ultimately result in Type 2 diabetes. In one study, healthy young men prevented from sleeping more than four hours a night for six nights in a row ended up with insulin and blood sugar levels like those of people deemed prediabetic. The risks of cardiovascular diseases and stroke are higher in people who sleep less than six hours a night. Even a single night of inadequate sleep can cause daylong elevations in blood pressure in people with hypertension. Inadequate sleep is also associated with calcification of coronary arteries and raised levels of inflammatory factors linked to heart disease. (In terms of cardiovascular disease, sleeping too much may also be risky. Higher rates of heart disease have been found among women who sleep more than nine hours nightly.)
The risk of cancer may also be elevated in people who fail to get enough sleep. A Japanese study of nearly 24,000 women ages 40 to 79 found that those who slept less than six hours a night were more likely to develop breast cancer than women who slept longer. The increased risk may result from diminished secretion of the sleep hormone melatonin. Among participants in the Nurses Health Study, Eva S. Schernhammer of Harvard Medical School found a link between low melatonin levels and an increased risk of breast cancer.
A study of 1,240 people by researchers at Case Western Reserve University in Cleveland found an increased risk of potentially cancerous colorectal polyps in those who slept fewer than six hours nightly.
Children can also experience hormonal disruptions from inadequate sleep. Growth hormone is released during deep sleep; it not only stimulates growth in children, but also boosts muscle mass and repairs damaged cells and tissues in both children and adults.
Dr. Vatsal G. Thakkar, a psychiatrist affiliated with New York University, recently described evidence associating inadequate sleep with anerroneous diagnosis of attention deficit hyperactivity disorder in children. In one study, 28 percent of children with sleep problems had symptoms of the disorder, but not the disorder.
During sleep, the body produces cytokines, cellular hormones that help fight infections. Thus, short sleepers may be more susceptible to everyday infections like colds and flu. In a study of 153 healthy men and women, Sheldon Cohen and colleagues at Carnegie Mellon University found thatthose who slept less than seven hours a night were three times as likely to develop cold symptoms when exposed to a cold-causing virus than were people who slept eight or more hours.
Some of the most insidious effects of too little sleep involve mental processes like learning, memory, judgment and problem-solving. During sleep, new learning and memory pathways become encoded in the brain, and adequate sleep is necessary for those pathways to work optimally. People who are well rested are better able to learn a task and more likely to remember what they learned. The cognitive decline that so often accompanies aging may in part result from chronically poor sleep.
With insufficient sleep, thinking slows, it is harder to focus and pay attention, and people are more likely to make poor decisions and take undue risks. As you might guess, these effects can be disastrous when operating a motor vehicle or dangerous machine.
In driving tests, sleep-deprived people perform as if drunk, and no amount of caffeine or cold air can negate the ill effects.
At your next health checkup, tell your doctor how long and how well you sleep. Be honest: Sleep duration and quality can be as important to your health as your blood pressure and cholesterol level.
This is the first of two columns on inadequate sleep.
A version of this article appeared in print on 06/18/2013, on page D5 of the NewYork edition with the headline: Harming Our Health With Eyes Wide Open

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Defined by upside-down living

career, discipline, development, relationships...  I guess some of these things are still a work in progress.  Yet, progress with many formidable results already.  Some I'm still working on.

http://elitedaily.com/life/how-your-20s-will-define-you/

Accomplishing Goals

“Discipline is the bridge between goals and accomplishment.”

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Starvation

2 out of 3 people face hunger as Haiti woes mount

http://news.yahoo.com/2-3-people-face-hunger-haiti-woes-mount-074207335.html


BELLE ANSE, Haiti (AP) — The hardship of hunger abounds amid the stone homes and teepee-like huts in the mountains along Haiti's southern coast.
The hair on broomstick-thin children has turned patchy and orangish, their stomachs have ballooned to the size of their heads and many look half their age — the tell-tale signs of malnutrition.
Mabriole town official Geneus Lissage fears that death is imminent for these children if Haitian authorities and humanitarian workers don't do more to stem the hunger problems.
"They will be counting bodies," Lissage said, "because malnutrition is ravaging children, youngsters and babies."
Three years after an earthquake killed hundreds of thousands and international donors promised to help Haiti "build back better," hunger is worse than ever. Despite billions of dollars from around the world pledged toward rebuilding efforts, the country's food problems underscore just how vulnerable its 10 million people remain.
In 1997 some 1.2 million Haitians didn't have enough food to eat. A decade later the number had more than doubled. Today, that figure is 6.7 million, or a staggering 67 percent of the population that goes without food some days, can't afford a balanced diet or has limited access to food, according to surveys by the government's National Coordination of Food Security. As many as 1.5 million of those face malnutrition and other hunger-related problems.
"This is scandalous. This should not be," said Claude Beauboeuf, a Haitian economist and sometime consultant to relief groups. "But I'm not surprised, because some of the people in the slums eat once every two days."
Much of the crisis stems from too little rain, and then too much. A drought last year destroyed key crops, followed by flooding caused by the outer bands of Tropical Storm Isaac and Hurricane Sandy.
Haiti has had similarly destructive storms over the past decade, and scientists say they expect to see more as global climate change provokes severe weather systems.
Klaus Eberwein, general director of the government's Economic and Social Assistance Fund, said: "We are really trying our best. It's not like we're sitting here and not working on it. We have limited resources."
He attributed Haiti's current hunger woes to "decades of bad political decisions" and, more recently, to last year's storms and drought. "Hunger is not new in Haiti," Eberwein said. "You can't address the hunger situation in one year, two years."
In the village of Mabriole, Marie Jean, a 33-year-old mother of six, looked helpless as her naked son Dieufort sat cross-legged in the dirt, a metal spoon in hand that was more toy than tool. The 5-year-old boy barely looked 3, his gaze unfocused and glassy eyes lifeless. His stomach was distended.
Jean said she lost 10 goats and several chickens to Isaac. The goats could have sold for about $17 apiece, the poultry for about $2.80. She could have used the animals for food or the money to hold her over until the new harvest season.
"You depend on this, because it's all you have," Jean said.
Many people have been forced to buy on credit, or look for the cheapest food available while eating smaller and fewer portions. Some families have asked relatives to take care of their children, or handed them over to orphanages so they have one less mouth to feed, humanitarian workers say.
Political decisions already had hurt the ability of Haitian farmers to feed the country. One example: Prodded by the U.S. government, Haiti cut tariffs on imported U.S. rice, driving many locals out of the market.
Eighty percent of Haiti's rice — and half of all its food — is imported now. Three decades ago, Haiti imported only 19 percent of its food and produced enough rice to export. Factories built in the capital at the same time did little to help: They led farmers to abandon their fields in the countryside in hope of higher wages.
At the same time, Haiti has lost almost all of its forest cover as desperately poor Haitians chop down trees to make charcoal. The widespread deforestation does little to contain heavy rainfall or yield crop-producing soil.
With so much depending on imports, meals are becoming less affordable as the value of Haiti's currency depreciates against the U.S. dollar. Haiti's minimum wage is 200 gourdes a day. Late last year, that salary was equivalent to about $4.75; today it's about $4.54 — a small difference that makes a big strain on the Haitian budget.
One hard-hit area is Ganthier, an arid stretch between the dense capital of Port-au-Prince and the Dominican border a few miles (kilometers) to the east. It's among 44 areas identified by the government as "food insecure," meaning too many tables are bare.
Here, villagers tell of an elusive rainfall that stymied crop production and then the hurricane that followed.
"That is when the misery began," said pastor Estephen Sainvileun, 63, as he sat with friends in the shade of a rare tree.
Hurricane Sandy ravaged the bean crops, leaving a three-month gap until the harvest resumed in December. With no beans to sell, farmers couldn't buy rice, corn or vegetable oil.
"Some people eat by miracle," said Falide Cerve, 51, a part-time merchant and single mother of five.
That has hurt education, too. The Ganthier schoolhouse, with its tin walls and dirt floor, can hold 100 students, but only 43 enrolled. The children are too hungry to learn.
"They're too distracted, and I have to send them home," said Sainvileun, the pastor who runs the tiny schoolhouse.
Especially hurt are children in Haiti's hard-to-reach villages. Directly south of Ganthier is one of the most remote zones in Haiti. The area is one of craggy mountains, the highest in the country at 8,772 feet (2,674 meters). Only the sturdiest off-road vehicles can climb the steep, twisting and rocky roads.
Some villages, such as Anse-a-Boeuf on the southeastern coast, are solely accessible by foot or donkey.
On a recent oven-hot afternoon, a team of Associated Press journalists hiked down a hill, past a thicket of mangroves and into the beachside hamlet. They found several dozen children waddling among the wood huts with the usual signs of malnutrition.
"This child is not malnourished," insisted 45-year-old grandmother Elude Jeudy as she held in her arms 2-year-old Jerydson, naked and crying, too frail to stand a few minutes earlier. "I feed him."
The mother had left the little boy so she could find work in Belle Anse, a nearby village on the ocean.
Neighbor Wilner Fleurimond added: "People shouldn't be living like this."
Villagers say they vote for people they hope will improve their lives but in the end find disappointment.
"We vote for the deputy we know and nothing works," Fleurimond fumed. "We vote for the deputy we don't know and nothing works."
Shortly after taking office, President Michel Martelly launched a nationwide program led by his wife, Sophia, called Aba Grangou, Creole for "end hunger." Financed with $30 million from Venezuela's PetroCaribe fund, the program aims to halve the number of people who are hungry in Haiti by 2016 and eradicate hunger and malnutrition altogether by 2025. Some 2.2 million children are supposed to take part in a school food program financed by the fund.
Eberwein, whose government agency oversees Aba Grangou, said 60,000 mothers have received cash transfers for keeping their children in school. A half million food kits were distributed after Hurricane Sandy, along with 45,000 seed kits to replenish damaged crops, he said. Mid- to long-term solutions require creating jobs.
But the villagers in the Belle Anse area say they've seen scant evidence of the program, as if officials have forgotten the deaths in 2008 of at least 26 severely malnourished children in this very region. That same year, the government collapsed after soaring food prices triggered riots.
USAID has allocated nearly $20 million to international aid groups to focus on food problems since Hurricane Sandy, but villagers in southern Haiti said they have seen little evidence of that.
Despite the discrepancy, one public health expert said there's sufficient proof that at least some of the aid is reaching the population. Were it not, Richard Garfield said, Haiti would see mass migration and unrest.
"Overall aid has gotten to people pretty well. If aid hadn't gotten to people that place would be so much more of a mess," said Garfield, a professor emeritus at Columbia University's Mailman School of Public Health and now a specialist in emergency response at the U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. "You'd see starvation and riots ... The absence of terrible things is about the best positive thing that we can say."
Government officials concede that not all of the 44 areas have received food kits and other goods as part of the Aba Grangou program.
"It hasn't arrived here yet. It's nothing but rhetoric," said Jean-Marc Tata, a math and French teacher and father of two who lives in Mabriole.
His 18-month-old son's hair began to turn orange after Tropical Storm Isaac knocked down trees, chewed up crops and killed livestock, leaving the family with little to eat.
"We had beans that were ready to pick but everything was lost. This has been a major cause of malnutrition," Tata said in a courtyard ringed with stone homes.
Tata said he had given his son a cup of coffee with a bit of bread, his only meal so far that day as dusk began to fall. The day before: a single bowl of oatmeal.
Haiti in general and the mountain villages in particular have long suffered from chronic hunger. Child malnutrition rates have been high for years. The United Nations' World Food Program reports that nearly a quarter of Haiti's children suffer from malnutrition, though the figure is higher in places such as Guatemala and the Sahel region in Africa.
Isolation doesn't help. A doctor in Belle Anse said his hospital has treated five children who were diagnosed with malnutrition this year. He said more parents would come if they could afford transportation and hospital fees, or take away time from work to make the journey on foot.
"The future is really threatened here," Tata said. "Our life is really threatened here."
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Associated Press videographer Pierre-Richard Luxama contributed to this report.
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Trenton Daniel on Twitter: http://twitter.com/trentondaniel.

Pursuit of greatness



Ravi Zacharias on relationships: "Men make the mistake of conquering instead of pursuing. Once a man has the girl, (married or in the relationship with them) they become bored because they feel like they've conquered. Arrived.. they feel no need to win them over and woo them. Love does not consist of conquering, it is a continual pursuing... Just like God never stops to pursue us relentlessly."

http://www.goodreads.com/author/quotes/3577.Ravi_Zacharias

“Love is a commitment that will be tested in the most vulnerable areas of spirituality, a commitment that will force you to make some very difficult choices. It is a commitment that demands that you deal with your lust, your greed, your pride, your power, your desire to control, your temper, your patience, and every area of temptation that the Bible clearly talks about. It demands the quality of commitment that Jesus demonstrates in His relationship to us.” 
― Ravi ZachariasI, Isaac, Take Thee, Rebekah: Moving from Romance to Lasting Love

Faith, not fantasy?

I'm not sure how to take the author's quotes below in comparison/contrast to the Matthew verse of Peter walking on the water.  If faith means I can do something that only my emotions could tell me to even try (like walking on water) then that seems more like fantasy (realm of emotion) vs reality (realm of the will)...

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Matthew 14:22-33 28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”

29 “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him.“You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”

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"Faith is not an emotional state. It's a volitional response. You choose to believe, you choose to obey. Too many in this generation make their emotions their Lord. Always being driven by their emotions, always making choices by how they feel and not based upon what God says. You wanna grow in maturity, you wanna grow as a worshipper of God? Learn how to give Christ His Lordship in your decisions, not based upon how you feel but based on what the Word of God says." - Jason Cunningham

"the life of faith is lived in the realm of the will, not in the realm of the emotion" - Jason Cunningham

Monday, June 17, 2013

the enduring appeal of Superman

"The enduring appeal of Superman: Yes, his past is marked by tragedy and his present is filled with all manner of complications, but when he puts on that suit, he's free to rise above them and take us along for the ride"
~http://www.televisionwithoutpity.com/mwop/moviefile/2013/06/man-of-steel-not-so-super.php

are masks ever good?

“When you are not feeling particularly friendly but know you ought to be, the best thing you can do, very often, is to put on a friendly manner and behave as if you were a nicer person than you actually are. And in a few minutes, as we have all noticed, you will be really feeling friendlier that you were. Very often the only way to get a quality in reality is to start behaving as if you had it already.” - C.S. Lewis

Sunday, June 16, 2013

Brainerd

"Such fatigues and hardship as these serve to wean me more from the earth; and, I trust, will make heaven the sweeter. Formerly, when I was thus exposed to cold, rain, etc., I was ready to please myself with the thoughts of enjoying a comfortable house, a warm fire, and other outward comforts; but now these have less place in my heart (through the grace of God) and my eye is more to God for comfort. In this world I expect tribulation; and it does not now, as formerly, appear strange to me; I don’t in such seasons of difficulty flatter myself that it will be better hereafter; but rather think how much worse it might be; how much greater trials others of God’s children have endured; and how much greater are yet perhaps reserved for me. Blessed be God that he makes [is] the comfort to me, under my sharpest trials; and scarce ever lets these thoughts be attended with terror or melancholy; but they are attended frequently with great joy."
~Brainerd

9 deadly foods

http://www.businessinsider.com/dangerous-foods-2013-6

1 FUGU – SHIMONOSEKI, JAPAN
2 ACKEE – JAMAICA
3 BULLFROG – NAMIBIA
4 SAN NAK JI – KOREA
5 APRICOT SEEDS – TURKEY
6 CASSAVA – AFRICA, SOUTH AMERICA
7 CASU MARZU – ITALY
8 ELDERBERRIES – EUROPE
9 BLOOD CLAMS – SHANGHAI, CHINA

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Prologue

Prologue: "an introductory or preceding event or development"
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Main Entry: pro·logue
Variant(s): also pro·log \ˈprō-ˌlg, -ˌläg\
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English prolog,from Anglo-French prologue, from Latin prologus preface to a play, from Greek prologos part of a Greek play preceding the entry of the chorus, from pro- before + legein to speak — more at pro-legend
Date: 14th century

1 : the preface or introduction to a literary work 2 a : a speech often in verse addressed to the audience by an actor at the beginning of a play b :the actor speaking such a prologue 3: an introductory or preceding event or development


Maybe they should patent snowflakes...

*They wanted mine.  ;-)

Genes not patentable says US Supreme Court  
13 JUNE 13  by KADHIM SHUBBER

The US Supreme Court has ruled that genes can't be patented. In a decision that will have profound repercussions for the future of genetic research, as well as breast and ovarian cancer testing, the Court wrote, "a naturally occurring DNA segment is a product of nature and not patent eligible".  In February, a court in Australia came to the opposite conclusion in an almost identical case.  All nine US judges agreed that Myriad Genetics, the defendant and holder of patents on two genes that signal a risk of breast and ovarian cancer, could not claim that isolating and sequencing a gene made it their intellectual property.  The case was sparked when Myriad issued a cease-and-desist orderto a team of Yale University researchers who were studying the genes, known as BRCA1 and BRCA2.  A case brought against Myriad in Australia, concerning BRCA1, failed with the judges ruling that gene isolation and extraction could be classified as "new manufacture".  Mutations in BRCA1 and BRCA2 can indicate that a woman is at high risk of breast and ovarian cancer. Myriad's patents on these genes gave it a monopoly in the US on cancer risk tests using those genes.  The company charges $3,340 for breast cancer analysis, plus $700 for an additional test that indicates an increased cancer risk in 10 percent of woman who test negatively in the first test.  By patenting the genes, and the technique for identifying mutations in them, Myriad was able to prevent anyone else from using these genes to test for cancer risk, or even research new ways of examining those genes. The ruling may help to reduce the cost of BRCA1 and BRCA2 tests, as other companies may now be able to provide tests.  Since 1982, the US Patent Office has granted more than 40,000 patents related to genetic material. The ruling will void at least some of these patents.  The ruling is somewhat of a compromise, in that Myriad can continue to claim a patent on synthetically created BRCA1 and BRCA2.

Hopefully the latter produces the former anyways...

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Strengths: "Context"

Context - in simplified terms - means that every memory or experience and piece of knowledge, or intuition, or understanding, or information, whether personal or public, is fair game for my brain to use, analyze, and compare/contrast or cross-reference.
This even more simply means that anything that happens I can compare to something else and (because of who I am, personally) relive every experience and emotion and strategy/outcome that came from a prior event to now.
Therefore context is a very dangerous strength to have when you know a lot of things...

Sometimes I wish I didn't know so much. I also wish sometimes I wasn't made the way I am or hadn't experienced what I have.
But then I wouldn't be me.

The great thing about context is that I don't have to experience something personally to empathize. The bad thing is when the experience is mine and when it comes around full circle. When that happens I am trapped by the very real pains and hurts once known deeply.

Still, context is one of my strengths. It helps me find solutions to problems. It helps me remember the truths to hold onto in troubled times. It helps me understand people and situations I have no direct understanding of otherwise. Context is a part of me.

"Maybe the most sacred function of memory is just that: to render the distinction between past, present and future ultimately meaningless; to enable us at some level of our being to inhabit that same eternity which it is said that God himself inhabits."
~Frederick Buechner

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Something to think about

"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things."
~Philippians 4:8

Cheap Upgrades, part deux

Admirals's lounge transition (back to haiti) office. ;) SFO

Gonna try to sleep on my flight this time...

1st class cheap upgrade perks:
http://www.aa.com/i18n/travelInformation/airportAmenities/AdmiralsClub.jsp?anchorLocation=DirectURL&title=admiralsclub

:-)

Strengths (& not weaknesses)

Utilize the best of you to BE the best of you.

Me (my top 5)? Restorative, Belief, Responsibility, Adaptability & Context

http://www.strengthsfinder.com/home.aspx
http://strengths.gallup.com/110440/About-StrengthsFinder-2.aspx

Sunday, June 2, 2013

Expressions of Love

"The highest expression of love is the experience and realizations of more- more of why you are, what you do, what you believe, and what you have." -Iyanla Vanzant

He needs to come through...

"I want people to look at my life and know that I couldn’t be doing this by my own power. I want to live in such a way that I am desperate for Him to come through. That if He doesn’t come through, I am screwed.”- Francis Chan

trust

trust is something that comes easy, if you've never been a victim.



http://elitedaily.com/life/trust-is-rare/

Cups

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yhECTE2-Oqc

.... and even better  :)  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cmSbXsFE3l8

reflections of love



Brad Pitt about His Wife

 A Secret of Love

 My wife got sick. She was constantly nervous because of problems at work, personal life, her failures and problems with children. She has lost 30 pounds and weighted about 90 pounds in her 35 years. She got very skinny, and was constantly crying. She was not a happy woman. She had suffered from continuing headaches, heart pain and jammed nerves in her back and ribs. She did not sleep well, falling asleep only in the morning and got tired very quickly during the day. Our relationship was on the verge of break up. Her beauty was leaving her somewhere, she had bags under her eyes, she was poking her head, and stopped taking care of herself. She refused to shoot the films and rejected any role. I lost hope and thought that we’ll get divorced soon… But then I decided to act on it. After all I’ve got the most beautiful woman on the earth. She is the ideal of more than half of men and women on earth, and I was the one allowed to fall asleep next to her and to hug her shoulders. I began to pepper her with flowers, kisses and complements. I surprised her and pleased every minute. I gave her lots of gifts and lived just for her. I spoke in public only about her. I incorporated all themes in her direction. I praised her in front of her own and our mutual friends. You won’t believe, but she has blossomed. She became even better than before. She gained weight, was no longer nervous and she loved me even more than ever. I had no clue that she CAN love that much.

 And then I realized one thing: ""The woman is the reflection of her man""

 Brad Pitt
Brad Pitt about His Wife

A Secret of Love

My wife got sick. She was constantly nervous because of problems at work, personal life, her failures and problems with children. She has lost 30 pounds and weighted about 90 pounds in her 35 years. She got very skinny, and was constantly crying. She was not a happy woman. She had suffered from continuing headaches, heart pain and jammed nerves in her back and ribs. She did not sleep well, falling asleep only in the morning and got tired very quickly during the day. Our relationship was on the verge of break up. Her beauty was leaving her somewhere, she had bags under her eyes, she was poking her head, and stopped taking care of herself. She refused to shoot the films and rejected any role. I lost hope and thought that we’ll get divorced soon… But then I decided to act on it. After all I’ve got the most beautiful woman on the earth. She is the ideal of more than half of men and women on earth, and I was the one allowed to fall asleep next to her and to hug her shoulders. I began to pepper her with flowers, kisses and complements. I surprised her and pleased every minute. I gave her lots of gifts and lived just for her. I spoke in public only about her. I incorporated all themes in her direction. I praised her in front of her own and our mutual friends. You won’t believe, but she has blossomed. She became even better than before. She gained weight, was no longer nervous and she loved me even more than ever. I had no clue that she CAN love that much.

And then I realized one thing: ""The woman is the reflection of her man""

Brad Pitt

grief

http://communicatingacrossboundariesblog.com/2013/05/07/learning-to-grieve-well/